One of the craziest things about pregnancy is the third trimester insomnia. I spend the majority of my day focusing on not falling asleep at my desk, only to have a nagging brain as soon as I hit my comfy king-sized bed.
What will Baby C look like?
Holy crap. I’m really about to be a mother.
What if my water was to break right….now?
Do I really think I can make it through labor and birth without an epidural?
(more on that in another post.)
What do I do with her once we bring her home?
Maybe I should read those parenting books.
I really don’t have enough diapers.
Last night was no different, however I realized one very important thing. I am not the only person about to embark on the life-changing (and terrifying) journey into parenthood. The man sleeping next to me may get to enjoy snoozing all the way through the night right now, but soon enough we BOTH will be on the front lines for Baby C.
Enjoy it while you can. You too, cat.
Maybe it’s the way he’s perfectly okay with not having all of the answers, saying that, “we’ll figure it out.”
Or how he is constantly encouraging me to practice my breathing while sitting on the exercise ball.
Or how he talks to my belly – something like how Dory speaks “whale” in Finding Nemo.
Whatever the reason, today I feel slightly more at ease with the giant, and very permanent, leap we’re about to take. Parenting isn’t our first challenge – only our latest.
And, at least we’re in this together.
Here’s to our next big adventure!
“He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.” – Bob Marley
We’re in this as a team and we have to enjoy the time we have together. Dorothy will be a great challenge but also a great joy. She is soon to meet her wonderful mother, and we’ll do our best for her!
Love you very much, as always.